Blogger's Diary-Ramblings of an emotionless heart(When Love Just Isn't Enough)

It’s the 4^th of November and I lay in my bed

Reflecting on what lies ahead

Knowing  there’s a lot to be said

So I  pen down my thoughts instead

On this day, I strengthen my resolve

Discarding all feelings of love

Embarking on this journey with trust

God will answer when I beckon

Haven’ I heard a lot about this?

Didn’t I write and condemn with ease?

Wondering why a woman would decide

She’d rather have a fatherless child

But today I cast away my doubts

Though glints of sadness hover like a cloud

But that’s just a temporary clout

The thought of it makes me want to scream out loud

Would want to whine on how I regret
How my heart I sub-let

Knowing his seed bursts through me from within
Thumping away from beneath

Want to know why I let myself slip

Was I overcome by the sweetness of his lips?
In his eyes I saw a heart so lit
Feeling accomplished like a king

But they say his love is enough

What’s the use of that without trust?

They say I must be going insane

To think of having this my own way

So I shut my heart to the pain

I close my eyes to the gains

Love was never enough for me

It’s more complicated than it seems

So they ask…

Didn’t he show you off to the world?

Didn’t he get rid of the whores?

Didn’t he treat you like a queen?

Why are you always being so mean?

Oh ! Enough with the questions

Enough with the lessons

If I choose to hear a sermon

Will find that in church at my leisure

Maybe I’m fighting unknown battles

Thunderous noises in my head like seahawks fans in Seattle

Or maybe I’m just not one to settle

For a life so little

So I give back this gold ring

I used to love the way it gleamed

And oh I think of how glad it made him seem

To know he finally owned me as his queen….

XO XO

Written by Emeh Achanga